I'm Back!!

i'm sure there are still people out there will rmb my blog :). cos some of them told me my blog is full of spider web. i dint really have much time to blog. :) lol. maybe it's just an excuse for not updating. but anw, i know u guys will be understanding. :)

Let me update u with my stuff. Last post of mine saying that i wanted to get gd result to go jc. hahaz. but in fact, i got a very lousy result for my 'o' lvl. However, i learnt quite alot of things from it. so i guess is worth. now i'm studying in Nanyang Poly Mechatronic course. it's an engineering course, mixture of mechanical and electronic stuff. After getting the poor result, i dint get into any sch, so i appeal lorz, and i took this course cos i also don't know y. lol. but ok la, my gpa still acceptable ba. 1st sem i got 3.375, 2nd sem i got 3.552. Next sem my target is 3.6-3.7. Hope u guys out there will encourage me and support me, ok?

As those who noe me better, will noe that i always heart broken, the doc glued bak most of the pieces, but some already can't be found, cos it has broken into many many tiny pieces. In the process of chasing a gal, i always learn alot of things from them, heart broken is what i always learn. lol. but anw, i'm afraid now. really afraid!! afraid of being hurt again, afraid of putting in effort. i'm losing faith in relationship. that's bad, but atm i guess i'm still straight. lol. BEI AI SHI XING FU DE, AI REN SHI TONG KU DE. so i now really have tis mentality. i will choose to wait. i really like the word waiting. hahaz. maybe by waiting can really train up my patience. Why do i say all of this, i will tell u y.

Recently, i met a gal(shall nt mention name, though she will nt be reading it. :) ) through my fren, Siong. this gal really fits in almost all the criterial of my image of a gf. Then maybe some ppl will say, if u think she's a gd gal, why dunwan chase? hahaz. i wanted to, but i'm too afraid. i also can meet most of her criterial, but 1 of her criterials i can't meet. is to be a Christian. i dunwan to be come a Christian because of wanting to chase her. i wan to do something because i think the thing is worth doing it. and i believe and have enough time to commit in it. now i can't commit as i'm still studying and i'll be wrking on wkends. So i guess i have to let this chance slip through. i'm facing the same prob again, the gal i like will NV like me bak. i don't know about this gal, but i can sense that in her. mayb i'm right, or mayb i'm just so lack of confidence in myself. lol. but whateva it is, my school is starting soon. so i guess i will put all the love and passion into my studies ba. :) cos me and her oso of a diff sch, so after i start my new sem, i guess i wont be seeing her so often. so i guess it's a gd thing also ba. And 1 last thing, recently i can't really rmb clearly ppl's faces. does that mean that my memory is becoming poorer?

After saying so much, dint really tell u much of that gal, er... She's not v pretty. once u see her, u will think she's that kind of guai guai de, 'du shu de liao'.but she's crappy when u noe her. lol. she's understanding, whoever is her bf will be v fortunate. but she has sad stories la. and i really despise her last bf. She's clever, but has a blur look. So don't judge a book by its cover. i got shock when i know she's so clever. not as in studies, but in thinking. :) she's funny at times, and sometimes will say cold jokes and luff at things for no reason. and sometimes sot sot de. She appears to be v soft, guys see le oso want to love and protect her those kind. but horz, i really don't rmb v clearly of her looks. don't know y? Perhaps just dunwan myself to step into it ba, and dunwan myself to 'wu ke zi ba'. i guess is better in this way ba. but if i noe she like me. i will like her back in double or tripple. and with all i can. :)

Actually i know her not v long, but feeling quite close to her. maybe is just like close fren feeling ba. sometimes close till i got the feeling of we are a couple. but i noe i think too much le. but i really enjoy the feeling. i will do my best for this 2 weeks. after that i will get bak to reality. But i guess i'm already getting bak into reality now le. don't need to wait till so long le. :) Those out there who is wrying about me being heart broken again. Thank You. i think i wont ba. cos i rather let the chance slip, rather than hurting myself. if i don't take care of myself, nobody will take care of me. YAO BIE REN AI NI, JIU YI DING YAO CHENG WEI ZHI DE BIE REN AI DE REN.

This post is very long. i think i become more and more naggy le. hahaz. Now i really rotting at home, anyone see this post now, can call or sms me de. :) Hope to update my blog often if possible. :) And now den i noe, blog spot cant see chi language.